The LN Chronicles

“A Letter”

Dear Anonymous

You Failed To Be Real With Me When You Couldn’t Speak Your Mind. Family?.. Well I Thought That Was We. You Ducked, Whispered & Took Everything I Put In And Ran With It. God Damn! It Was All I Had Left…

How Dare You Soak Your Self In Greed, Sorta Feels Like You Sold Your Soul To The Dark Side. And Yes Im Getting Deep, Deeper Then A Cut, And I Remember, Yes I Remember Things Like This Annoyed You, And Maybe I Was A Bother But When You Gave Me A Title Of “Family” I Thought We Had To Stick Thru Thick & Thin, Wasn’t That Our Modo, Wait Didin’t I Create That Modo. Well… Didin’t I Create It All?

Yes, Oh Yes… It’s Coming Along Slowly. I Messed Up A Few Times But I Alway’s Made Up For It. Im Sorry! I’m Sorry I Created Such Monsters. I Created Something That Was Going To Bite Me In The Ass. (Sigh)…

Thank God For The Higher Power, Saved Me Countless Times. Especially When Every Night Turned Into Hell. And Every Sunrise Turned To Dwell. He Showed Me The Way, I Asked Him, God? When Will My Day Come? When Will I Shine?…

He Simply Replied, Your Days Been Here, You Just Simply Ignored It For So Long, While Focusing On Everyone Else’s Coming Days.

Sincerly,

Heart of A Crazy Loving Man.

“DEATH”

Why Is It, When Someone Faces The Sad Chapter Of There Book Titled “Death”, That’s When The World, Friends & Family Try To Appreciate Them & There Moment’s When They Were Here? Weird Huh? Do You Ask Yourself On A Day To Day Basis That Famous Question That Almost Everyone Thinks About In There Head, The Famous “I Wonder If People Will Care, When Im Dead?” or “Who Will Come To My Funeral If I Died?”.

I Think When We Hit Rock Bottom, Or Get Just A Lick Of Depression And Sadness In Our Life We Question Our Purpose On Earth. And Believe Me When I Say We All Have A Purpose. Coming From Someone That’s Been Stabbed & Constantly Beaten, I Can Tell You I Have A Purpose. We All Do.

We Should Celebrate Those Who Are Here & Say How Much You Appreciate Them Till there Ears Bleed because You Don’t Know When Someone’s Road Ends. Hug 3 Seconds Longer, Smile More Harder & Laugh A Little Bit Louder. Enjoy Your Time Here, Because It’s Not Permanent. And Remember To Appreciate People During Your Busy Life Because When It’s Over, Who Will You Have Left?

I Think That Instead Of Asking Ourselves Those “Deadly” Questions We Should Make Our World A Better One, Meaning Inside Our Heads, Outside Our Body And With Who We Keep Around Our Surroundings. Stay Safe, Stay Blessed & Appreciate Life.

-Loco Ninja

“Friendship”

I Know Plenty of You Ask Yourself “What Is Friendship” Whenever You Doubt That Your Friends Are There For You Or Not. I Figure We All Have At Least 1, Maybe 2 At Most But I Don’t, I Have At Least A HandFul From Different Groups Of Friends. I Have Family-Friend Orientated, Dance/Entertainment Community Friends, Musician Fam Friends & Then There’s Those Life Changing, Kinda Family, Maybe Not Blood But Certainly Thicker Than It “Friends” Haha.

I Dont’ Really Question My Relationships With Those I Call “Best Friends” Because The Ones Who Are Constantly There, Give Me That Leaning Shoulder. And Give Me Hugs, Laughter When Constantly By My Side Without Having To Seek While Lost.

I Know Some Like Me Have Had Friends In The Past Couple Of Years Who Just Vanish. Its Certainly Sad Because Like I Said In “Addicted” From The “LN Chronicles” I Go Over Struggling From The Addiction Of (Losing People). But For Some Reason You Just Can’t Seem To Find Those Who Were Around, Kinda Like Losing That Old Teddy Bear That Your Parent’s Bought You And You Fell In Love With It Till You Get To That Certain Age & Realize “OH SNAP” Where Did That Old Thing Go?

Some Of Them Are Still Out There In The Midst Of Life. But What’s More Important Is Being Ok & As Long As Your Heart Has Some Kind Of Love Left In It, We’ll Be Okay. We All Need Love Don’t We?. Why Yes We Do!

Alway’s Keep Those Who Are Honest Around You, Even When There Not Right Beside You. Friends Will Alway’s Have Some Type Of Time In The Day, Maybe Even For 30 Second’s To Call You Up And See How Your Day Was & Say That One “I Love You” That You Needed To Make Your Day Go Just About Right. And A Friend Who Is Willing To Do Anything For You Is Just About That Most Perfect Person To Keep Around. And Remember Money, Fame, Success And People Can Never Get In Between Your Love For Those Best Friend’s Because They Are Your Escape From The World Sometimes.

Now Go Call Up A Best Friend Of Yours & Tell Them How Much You Care & Love Them, Even If You Haven’t Spoke To Them In A Very Long Time, Send Them A Text, Tweet Or FB Message! Don’t Let life Get Over Your Love For Another Human Being.

-Loco Ninja

“Addiction”

Usually When You Hear The Word “Addicted”, You Think Drugs, Alcohol or Sometimes Start To Remember The Funny Scenes In A Movie or Show Of An Actor Saying “Hello, I’m Richie and Im Addicted To”….

But In This Case My Addiction Is Different. Something Way More Then Just A Needle To The Skin. Something Deeper Then That. And Well, Since Were On The Subject. Hi! My Name Is Loco, And Im Addicted To “Love”…

I Don’t Mean Being In A Boyfriend-Boyfriend Love Relationship, I Mean My Heart Craves Something My Mind Doesn’t Always Accept. And All Tho I Can’t Help But To Listen To My Heart, My Mind Is Usually The Sane One.

I Find That I Love Very Easily, And Altho It’s An Amazing Thing To Do Between Friends, Family and Sometimes Strangers, You Find Yourself At The Crossroads And I’ve Made That Mistake Way To Many Times. I Constantly Seek Around For Those Who Mattered, Those Who Faded Into The Midst Of Time But Can’t Seem To Find Them. So I Deal With What I Can Take. People Who Only Start The Cycle Over.

My Mind Constantly Has Conversations With My Heart, He Tell’s Her To Stop Whining, He Also Tells Her To Stop Being So Vulnerable. But To Also Stop Getting Caught Up In Acts Of Evil. And Yes, My Heart’s A Woman Because It Has The Traits Of Women, She Sighs, She Crys & Sometimes Feels 2 Beats Short From The Word “Die”.

I Guess Some People Will Read This & Say Well Maybe The Issue Is You, Maybe People Fade Away Because You’ve Drove Them To The Edge, And Usually The Answer Of Someone Else’s Reply Would Be “No, That’s Not True”. But Thats Not The Case! Because I’ve Made My Mistakes, And Im Accepting Them Now, Just Going Thru The Steps Of Becoming Sober. Sober You Say? What Do You Mean?

Well… I Need To Become Sane Again And In Order For Me To Do So, I Must Become Sober From The “Addiction” And Im Ready To Take The Steps I Must To Have Closure. I Just Want To Live Life Loving Without Making The Mistakes And Without Getting Attached To Not Only A Human Being But Learn To Love Myself Just As Much As I’ve Learned To Love Another.

-Loco Ninja